Listen...There's this guy....

Lemme talk about my crush.

Well, actually, it wasn't a crush at first... it suddenly turned out that way (just to chase the pains of being broken-hearted away).

He's not THAT attractive of a guy. Not my TYPE either. Like I said, it was random. He's got this mysterious aura like those of my EX... ugh... I don't want to get through this reminiscing again...

Well, like I said, because I don't know him, he doesn't know me kind of thing, I get excited everytime I see him during lunch time... My heart could go *doki* *doki* on me...

I don't want to get to know him for I know, surely, the thrill would be gone and excitement would die right there and then... I don't like that... it won't be fun anymore...(such a bad girl!!!) I scare myself sometimes....hehe

And so, I'll continue my secret giggles as my eyes scan the company canteen for that mysterious aura of his...

Random Talks on Random Thoughts

Have you noticed? My blog looks a little nicer than before, noh? Well, I got nothing to do so I've been working hard on my blog.


I added some gadgets that may let my visitors interact with me faster...i think... I really hope you'll enjoy your visit... I'll be updating my blogs from time to time with interesting topics (not only about being broken hearted or lonely or anything like that... I hope...).
Well then, I wonder if it's okay to post my stories in here... hmmm...
Guess, I'll run and think about that some more....

-the charms of imagination-

...and I say "Bye, bye! Basa, Bye-bye!"

My Kareshi, Sayonara!
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It’s been a month since my heart was broken
I never imagined that could be the ending
Of once I believed would last forever
I was shocked; my soul was shattered.

He’s getting married, yes, that’s what he said
That without a child, life isn’t worth living
He’ll be taking responsibility for what he did
So he bid goodbye; thanked me for everything.

I was surprised by the news; it was just too sudden
Couldn’t he say that in a nicer way, even give me a warning?
That was too cruel for him to say… too hard for me to take
And then, alas, the tears came out; my heart began to break.

I lost my drive; my smiles were gone; all but hurt remained,
What have I done, I wondered, to deserve such pain?
All I wanted was to love him and give him happiness;
But those weren’t enough for him, everything was worthless.

Then I told him I’d forget him and I’ll move on with my life,
I thought I could pull through so easily, but that was just a lie;
‘Coz memories of us together came rushing through my head,
Resisting it was so difficult, I was missing him instead.

The truth is, deep inside, I never wanted to forget you
Though it hurt me that I’ve lost you, my feelings weren’t untrue
Truly, I am grateful that I’ve met someone like you
‘Coz I’ve experienced real love and deceit all because of you.

I was scared to face reality for I know it would hurt my pride,
That you were only playing me; that everything was a lie;
Which ones were real? Which ones were not? Please, do tell;
‘Coz all those times I was sincere; for you I deeply fell

I don’t want you as friends right now; I don’t want to hear
That you’ve moved on already and found someone dear;
While I’m stuck in here in sorrows; clearly I’m not doing well,
So I told you I’d be gone forever; I gave you my farewell.

It was just for a little while but let me thank you
For all the patience, care and efforts that you have shown;
Even if it was all pretend, if not for you
That happiness and this loneliness I wouldn't have known.

But I sure do want to see you again once I have recovered
Until that day, I hope you won’t forget the days we’ve spent together;
It’s time for me to fly away; it’s time to say goodbye,
Until that day, Sayonara! My Kareshi, bye-bye…

-the charms of imagination-

The Final Blow

Today I've officially broken up with my 6-month long kareshi. I'm not 'okay' actually but I think I'll be just fine. It's painful to have these memories of him flashing back from time to time but I'm already accepting the fact that these fragments are already part of my yesterdays. Well, I was happy being with him and I enjoyed his company. I even thought that it could last forever. I really did. But I guess some good things never last.

I think I'll be able to face tomorrow and move on. It's just that it's kind of lonely without his company around. I was getting used to having him 24 hours on my cellphone and hearing his laughters, his giggles and his talks with that soft voice of his. I won't ever forget. I'll carry these bitter-sweet memories of my first kareshi, my first love.



-the other side of the coin-