...and I say "Bye, bye! Basa, Bye-bye!"

My Kareshi, Sayonara!
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It’s been a month since my heart was broken
I never imagined that could be the ending
Of once I believed would last forever
I was shocked; my soul was shattered.

He’s getting married, yes, that’s what he said
That without a child, life isn’t worth living
He’ll be taking responsibility for what he did
So he bid goodbye; thanked me for everything.

I was surprised by the news; it was just too sudden
Couldn’t he say that in a nicer way, even give me a warning?
That was too cruel for him to say… too hard for me to take
And then, alas, the tears came out; my heart began to break.

I lost my drive; my smiles were gone; all but hurt remained,
What have I done, I wondered, to deserve such pain?
All I wanted was to love him and give him happiness;
But those weren’t enough for him, everything was worthless.

Then I told him I’d forget him and I’ll move on with my life,
I thought I could pull through so easily, but that was just a lie;
‘Coz memories of us together came rushing through my head,
Resisting it was so difficult, I was missing him instead.

The truth is, deep inside, I never wanted to forget you
Though it hurt me that I’ve lost you, my feelings weren’t untrue
Truly, I am grateful that I’ve met someone like you
‘Coz I’ve experienced real love and deceit all because of you.

I was scared to face reality for I know it would hurt my pride,
That you were only playing me; that everything was a lie;
Which ones were real? Which ones were not? Please, do tell;
‘Coz all those times I was sincere; for you I deeply fell

I don’t want you as friends right now; I don’t want to hear
That you’ve moved on already and found someone dear;
While I’m stuck in here in sorrows; clearly I’m not doing well,
So I told you I’d be gone forever; I gave you my farewell.

It was just for a little while but let me thank you
For all the patience, care and efforts that you have shown;
Even if it was all pretend, if not for you
That happiness and this loneliness I wouldn't have known.

But I sure do want to see you again once I have recovered
Until that day, I hope you won’t forget the days we’ve spent together;
It’s time for me to fly away; it’s time to say goodbye,
Until that day, Sayonara! My Kareshi, bye-bye…

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