I've Had Enough

Even as I have confessed to the world my feelings for him, as of this moment, I am ending it.

It has become too painful to bear. Love is supposed to be a wonderful feeling; but all I could ever feel are nothing but hopelessness, emptiness and pains. This is just too sad. I feel sorry for myself. I could hear the voice of my pride telling me loud and clear to shut my doors for him and move on. I should have done this sooner for I know he does not and will not love me back even from the start. (Ugh, what am I hoping for?! ~_~)

Once, he referred me as a hook in his poem. A hook that comforts, cares and confuses him. Well, right now, I want to tell him that the hook is untangling him free; that the hook has finally realized that she is setting her targets too low to be capturing a goldfish caged in a fish bowl; and that the hook has decided to go and fish a bigger, more beautiful, more deserving catch in the wide ocean where a lot is free to love her back.

I love him but I don't want to love him anymore. Now, this is final. This goodbye is finally real. This time mō ii!

Charm's New Look

Last May, I decided to cut my long, straight hair short. It was still the same layered style with bangs almost covering my eyes. I stashed the colored parts (dying your hair can really damage it if you're as lazy to have a monthly treatment as me... so take caution.) to make my hair look black again.

So now, I look like the one you're seeing in here.

What do you think?

DEAR SIR

When I'm with you, I'd get so thrilled and
My heart just won't slow down
My thoughts would freeze, sensations heightened
Yet I barely make one sound.

One look from you, I'd hold my breath
Then every thing's just a blur
You'd smile at me, I'd lose my strength
My world just stopped, Dear Sir.

When we talk, I'd get excited,
By simply hearing your voice,
When you laugh, I'm fascinated
It's the sweetest kind of noise.

When I'm with you, I'd forget Dear Sir,
You already have someone you love,
Does she know she's one lucky girl?
'Coz she's got the heart I'll never have.

And in this poem, I just partake
Unrequited feelings I have for you
I don't care if my heart re-breaks
Because, Dear Sir, I'm inlove with you.

~o~ NGCP Christmas Party! ~o~

We had our 1st NGCP Christmas Party last December 15, 2009 at the Casino Español, Ramos, Cebu City. The night was so awesome. I've seen people from the different departments who I've never seen before. The ladies were so gorgeous. The gentlemen were so handsome (?)... LOL... Everyone was so INTO the occasion. I could feel Christmas was REALLY in the air. And oh, by the way, let me show you some of the pictures we had on that night. (Courtesy of Ms. GrassieDGrace, Mr. James Q and Mr. Ynnad) ^_^

" THIS IS THE ROLETA... OK, RO-LE-TA! "

YOUNG, YOUNGER, YOUNGEST! (char!)

WHO'S THAT GURL?

" DROP YOUR LUCKY TICKETS! "

CARLO: " I'M THE MAN! "

A POSE WITH MR. RUSTOM SOLON OF MTD-B

" TWITWIW! "

" THE WANDER GIRLS! "

" I WANT NOBODY, NOBODY BUT YOU! "

" MGA BABAE SA ROLETA... "

" UH-HUH, UH-HUH "

Planning Session @ Panglao Bohol

We had our Planning Session in Dumaluan Beach Resort, Panglao Island, Bohol.
Check out some of the pictures we got from there. (Courtesy of Ms. GrassieDGrace)