Who I Am...

I've been feeling depressed lately when I come across with this song by Jessie J. It brought the sparks back to my day. It's saying that it's okay to be myself and it's not wrong to feel not okay sometimes. Her song inspired me.

Here it is:

Who You Are by Jessie J.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am I doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error,

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are! (who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!

The more I try the less is working, yeah yeah yeah

'Cause everything aside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like BOOM,

Just go and leave me alone!

Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay...

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!


yeah yeah yeah

Just got inspired,
Aia

Who do you think you are?

Suddenly, he's communicating again. He's like wanting my attention once again. After all the hell I've been through because of him, now he feels like he wants to return to me. This is all I want to say: Who do you think you are?!

 

Lyrics to Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri:

No I can’t take one more step towards you, cuz all that’s waiting is regret

And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore, you lost the love I loved the most

I’ve learned to live half alive, and now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, who do you think you are?

I hear you’re asking all around if I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms

I’ve learned to live half alive, and now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, who do you think you are?

It took so long just to feel all right, remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed, cuz you broke all your promises

And now you’re back, you’re looking to get me back

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

Don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Always,

Aia

Of weddings...

I just realize, two of my closest friends are getting married this year. That leaves me the only one who won't have any band on my ring finger by the end of the year. Unconsciously, I keep on looking at the mirror today. Am I really that undesirable? I wonder...



Always,
Aia

If I Had a Passport...

If I had a passport, the first place I'd like to visit would be JAPAN! And when I go there, i would go there during spring time. I'd love to see the sakuras (cherry blossoms) lined up in full bloom.

Winter season would be nice as well. I'd soak myself in their hot spring baths as I play with the falling snow. (That would be so cool!) But then I had to make myself be able to adapt to a very, very cold --freezing-- temperature, because right now, I'd shiver at the medium speed of my junior fan. No kidding!  >////< I guess I had to practice being in the freezer to be able to do this. 

And then, I'd try their okinomiyaki, takoyaki, taiyaki and so much more! Oh, of course, I'd also try donning myself into one of their beautiful kimonos. I wonder how I'd look...

There's just so many things I'd like to try once I get there. But, in order to get there I'd have to undergo a very long process.

To start with, I have to get a passport first. Hai, wakarimashita!

Itsumo,

Aia desu~

Something I Miss...

If there's one thing I miss that I did earlier this year, it's the Prana experience.

I'd love to go back and take a relaxing trip to their sauna, steam bath and jacuzzi bath!

Always,

Aia