somebody to love (me)

What am I looking for in a man?

 someone to love me with all of him and who would fight for that love no matter what.

Wishing hard as ever,
Aia

Who I Am...

I've been feeling depressed lately when I come across with this song by Jessie J. It brought the sparks back to my day. It's saying that it's okay to be myself and it's not wrong to feel not okay sometimes. Her song inspired me.

Here it is:

Who You Are by Jessie J.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am I doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error,

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are! (who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!

The more I try the less is working, yeah yeah yeah

'Cause everything aside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like BOOM,

Just go and leave me alone!

Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay...

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!


yeah yeah yeah

Just got inspired,
Aia

Emptiness

World's frozen, heart's gone cold,
Empty smiles, nothing to hold;
Loneliness lingered through the night,
As she held herself so tight.

Love filled her life with colors,
Stole her heart, went away;
Her own pride betrayed her,
All colors' gone but gray.

No tears left to cry,
Feelings all gone dry
But pain: no one to blame,
It's all part of the game.

Looking at her footprints from the past,
If she goes back, follows the trail
Returns to the very person that she was
Will hurt be gone as well?

Sinking deep into nothingness,
Wriggling to break free;
Trying to fight the emptiness,
Oh God, help me!