C H @ R M S

Fickle-Minded You

2012-01-31T12:34:00.001+08:00

The bad thing about being fickle-minded is that

you might end up hurting someone unnecessarily.

Talk about Crushes

2012-01-30T12:49:00.000+08:00

Crushes.

Everyone has them.

Those awkward, nerve-wracking moments part of your lives everytime you see them lurking in the corners of your eyes. You see them everywhere yet you can't go near them. You feel that tingling feeling everytime you get the chance to converse with them; and even after you get home and linger on that encounter.

There are times you feel like telling about them to your peers and yet there are still those you want to keep to yourself. You'd miss a whole lot of your life if you haven't had at least one of those.

I know I did-- a whole lot of them too. ;)

My first crush was during my first grade. He was a rough boy who always get in trouble. If there was something to remember about him, it was the slap I got from him. I even forgot his name.

I had my second crush during my second grade that went on until third grade. In my memories, he was a kind, talented, intelligent, good-looking boy. His name's Teddy. We were good friends back then -- as well as the rest of my classmates. No girl in our class who hasn't got a crush on him -- that's how good a material he was. After more than a decade, I reconnected with him and some of our classmates. He's still as good as he was before. The only thing that changed was my feelings for him. I guess I did grow up a little bit. ;)

My third crush was during my first year in high school. His name's Jeffrey. He was intelligent, on my perspective, witty, gentle, easy to talk to... he was the closest male friend I had until it got pretty awkward between us. He stopped talking to me that lasted for about more than two years. I remembered saying to myself of how he missed his chance with me. I really thought that we clicked. Years later, he dated my best friend for sometime. I wasn't bothered in the very least.

My fourth crush came around the time I turned thirteen. His name's Ervin. He was the cousin of one of my classmates. I liked the way he's always cheerful. I liked the way he sang the Westlife songs to me. He was the first guy who told me he loved me. I turned him down almost instantly though. Well, I had other priorities at that time.

My fifth one was during my early sophie year. His name's Mark. As I can remember, he was the he-knows-how-handsome-he-is kind of guy who's intelligent, outspoken, outgoing, and very talented. He was that man who got embarrassed by me for saying some unintelligent remarks (Me 10 years ago: Ikaw tong gi-boo-han?). It was because of those that we connected. I've met him when I was a freshie in college. He was still as cool as before but I've realized he wasn't my type anymore. Well, they've dated with my best friend but didn't last long.

My sixth crush was during my late sophie year. He's this cool kind of guy who went to school with gelled hair, same t-shirt every two days, walked like a ramp model and had headphones plugged on his ears. His name's Jason. I liked the coolness about him. Though there were chances when he was about to court me, I've blocked them each and every time.

My seventh crush was my most treasured of all. I didn't notice him until after I got in my junior year in high school. I didn't think he'd be the person I thought him to be. Unlike those other good-looking men, he was gentle and kind to all. He's a very humble person who made me feel so cherished. Everytime he talked to me, he'd looked straight into my eyes. If I wouldn't looked away, I would've melted from his stare. He's the first man I've known who made me feel so special. I've even thought I'd gave him my first kiss even if he couldn't be my boyfriend. For the record, he's courted me a couple of times when I was still studying in college. Although there came a time he'd dated my best friend (and I was badly hurt by that), he courted me again months after they broke up saying it was me he liked best. I told him that the feelings were mutual but it's just not the right time for us. I made him wait for me. Well, I thought he'd wait for me. By the time I graduated, I realized I was mistaken. He's with someone else already. I should have known that love is all about timing. We had our chance and that was it. It took me a longer time before I've come to accept that he and I weren't meant to be. His name's Aaron. He was my first heartbreak.

My eighth crush was during my fourth year high school. I liked him for being handsome -- that's all. His name's Dan. It was this pull he had on me that I couldn't resist. Even though he's crushing on my best friend, I didn't care. The only thing that mattered to me back then was that I liked him. I remember not tellng anybody about my crush on him. Everyday, after school ends, I'd pass by his classroom and take a glimpse of him. It was a thrilling crush experience.

My ninth one was when I was a freshman in college. He was a vetmed student. I didn't get to know him but I liked him for being good-looking and cool. His name's Eman.

My tenth was when I was a sophie in college. He was a medtech student. He played basketball. He was number eleven. Among the number eleven's in the university, he was the perfect fit for the Rukawa title. I loved his spunkiness in the game. I never got the chance to get near him. His name's Ko. (I didn't even got his first name, dang!)

My eleventh crush was during that time I broke up with my first boyfriend. He was mystifyingly charming for me. There was something about him that pulled me towards him. He made me feel that even though I've lost a loved one, the thrill of love wasn't gone. There could have been so much more between us if he hadn't betrayed my feelings for him. I didn't even know how he truly feels for me. I guess I'll never have the chance. His name's Kenneth. He was my third heartbreak.

I might have forgotten some other crushes I had, but these were the highlights of my youth. I may not be crushing someone anytime sooner -- what with all the heartbreaks they caused me. But this is for sure, the heart's got to do what the heart's got to do; and there's nothing my intelligent brain could do about that.

A crush is just a crush unless you fall in love with him.

"Love truly, wholy, passionately even if it's unbearably painful,

That way, you'll be able to live through life with no regrets." - Saya Allego

Pakialamera!

2012-01-24T11:43:00.003+08:00

Huwag kang magmarunong dahil lang mas matanda ka pa kaysa sa akin.

Huwag kang umasta na kilala mo na ako dahil hindi mo hawak ang buhay ko.

Kung masaya ka man sa buhay mo, huwag mong ikumpara sa buhay ng iba; wala kang karapatan!

Huwag mong husgahan ang buhay na hindi sa'yo, hindi ka Diyos!

Huwag mong problemahin ang buhay ng iba, problemahin mo'ng sa'yo;

Dahil hindi tulad mo, wala kaming pakialam sa iyo!

The Cover of Boyfriend for Hire by Saya Allego

2012-01-19T16:18:00.000+08:00

FantaSaya: The Cover of Boyfriend for Hire by Saya Allego

-the charms of imagination-

Key Chains from China, Boracay and Iloilo

2012-01-19T09:34:00.002+08:00

One key chain after the other... tsk tsk tsk...

Guess, this is turning out to be a sudden KEY CHAIN REACTION! ;)

Thank you so much!

-Aia

Love VS Hate

2012-01-18T17:51:00.002+08:00

The opposite of LOVE isn't HATE,

it's INDIFFERENCE.

Love Makes Me Strong

2012-01-16T14:05:00.001+08:00

God = Love

Love = God

I strongly believe so...

-Aia <3

Of Betrayal and Forgiveness...

2012-01-16T13:56:00.001+08:00

"If they say that they're sorry, does that mean we'll have to forgive them already?

The pain of being betrayed doesn't go away that easily."

- Buzzer Beat

Just Cry

2012-01-12T10:35:00.000+08:00

People sometimes tend to put on a tough front so they could prove to the world they can handle the problem even when the truth is that they could barely stand on their feet and that mask is the only leaning stick they have that once broken, so is their sanity.

I wish they could just cry and accept that as part of their reality. Because the more you deny that you are hurt, the worse the wounds could get. True enough, it hurts as hell when you start accepting that you're not really strong, but then, that's where healing begins.

Don't keep it all inside you. For once, just let it out. Cry.

"Crying doesn't mean you're weak. It only means you're brave enough to accept your humanity."

- Aia

Of Letting Go

2012-01-12T10:00:00.000+08:00

It's easier said than done.

-Aia

Those were the Lines...

2012-01-10T10:14:00.000+08:00

Please, God.
I still love him.
But I don’t want to love him anymore.
I don’t want to hurt anymore.
Please.
Help me forget.
Please help me let him go.
Please, help me let him go.

- Grace's prayer for Bruce from Bruce Almighty

I thought I heard those lines before... I guess I might have said that a couple of times from way, way back. And now that I've encountered them once again, it makes me smile. Ahh, those were the times. Those were the times.

Melancholic,

Aia

Happy Day!

2012-01-05T16:22:00.000+08:00

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!

Thank you! Thank you!

Thank you!

Ang saya-saya,

Aia

War Games

2012-01-04T13:19:00.004+08:00

Can you please stop hurting one another?

There's no gain in these.

Live. Dream. Love.

Keep the fire burning!

Sincerely,

Aia

It's Not Just About You

2011-12-23T10:09:00.000+08:00

It doesn't always work just because it works for you.

Hating that attitude,

Aia

Where do I belong?

2011-12-21T14:25:00.000+08:00

i'm hurt because you're hurt.

but i guess mine's twice the pain.

caught in between,

aia

I DON'T CARE

2011-12-14T10:30:00.000+08:00

Too much drama to handle.
I don't care anymore.

Enjoying my best,
Aia

Comfort

2011-12-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

We're out of it today. How can we comfort someone when we also need that someone to comfort us?

Needing someone,

Aia

Helplessness

2011-11-24T10:14:00.001+08:00

Why do I feel like all the things I like are always taken from me and given to someone else? I was the first to discover that, you second rate copy cat! >(

I feel like being ganged up and couldn't do anything to protect myself.

Feeling such a loser,

Aia

Sensitivity

2011-11-23T10:02:00.000+08:00

You only have to talk to me and I would be alright. But because you're insensitive to this, I'm heartbroken.

Down,

Aia

"That" Locked my Heart

2011-11-22T22:24:00.000+08:00

Even with that confused look you have, showing that combination lit up my heart.

Blushing,

Aia

Sharing Pictures during Bang's Wedding

2011-11-17T15:13:00.001+08:00

Looking at you looking at me

Having fun with the bride

First maid-of-honor walk

-the charms of imagination-

Imperialized Experience

2011-11-16T12:40:00.001+08:00

Every year, our group would always have our planning session. Last year, we went to a resort in Bas Daku, Moalboal. This year, we went to a classy, exciting resort in Mactan -- Imperial Palace!

Looking at my reflection on the elevator wall.

Crazy pose with Ate Diday!

Irrisista-pool!: A view of Imperial Palace's front pool from 10th floor.

Villa-mazing!: Fancy villa accommodation from a 10th floor point of view.

Key to heaven!

Overwhelmed with happiness,

Aia

Bohol Tropics Again ;)

2011-10-21T16:18:00.000+08:00

Got my pictures during our stay at Bohol Tropics for our 2011 Tabletop big thanks to Ate Didz! ;).

Hot choco for starters. ;)

A cheesy pose at the poolside.

The best part is, we'll be sleeping there again next week for the inauguration of one of our buildings.

So excited,

Aia

somebody to love (me)

2011-10-20T14:21:00.001+08:00

What am I looking for in a man?

someone to love me with all of him and who would fight for that love no matter what.

Wishing hard as ever,
Aia

Of pride and vulnerability...

2011-10-17T11:36:00.003+08:00

I've cried a lot for you even when I know you'll never shed a tear for me.

The most frustrating thing for me is when I bare my vulnerability for someone while that person puts up a strong front.

Always,

Aia

bonding with baby carl

2011-10-11T14:15:00.000+08:00

I had the chance to bond with my nephew during my best friend's wedding. Look at this, aren't we both cute? XD

Love,

Ninang Aia

of bouquets...

2011-10-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

As tough as I may seem, I'm still just a girl who loves to have flowers from Prince Charming whoever he may be. Sadly, I haven't receive one flower from any man to this date.

My very first bouquet was from Bang's wedding as one of her Maids of Honor.

It's so pretty.>///<

Always,

Aia

my best friend

2011-10-08T13:35:00.003+08:00

I was asked to give a speech on Bang's wedding. I almost said that I'd decline hadn't the emcee cut short the program line up. Even so, I could have sung to her our favorite song back when we were still in high school:

Many people say true friends are hard to find
but I know i’m not that kind
they come and go and sometimes leave us behind
like a wind that passes by

[chorus]
`Cause when you need a friend
that you can depend
you can count on me because
you’re my best friend

when you’re feeling down
and your heart is hurt
you can call on me
and I will be there for you friend

Good things may come
and that bad things may go
like that love long time ago
you’re like a ship that’s sailing across the sea
through the waves that’s so unkind

[chorus]
`Cause when you need a friend
that you can depend
you can count on me because
you’re my best friend

when you’re feeling down
and your heart is hurt
you can call on me
and I will be there for you friend

[chorus]
`cause when you need a friend
that you can depend
you can count on me because
you’re my best friend

when you’re feeling down
and your heart is hurt
you can call on me
and I will be there for you

When you need a friend
that you can depend
you can count on me because
you’re my best friend

when you’re feeling down
and your heart is hurt
you can call on me
and I will be there for you friend

My tears kept on falling even though I know I am very much happy for her now that she has finally found the one who would love her for who she is for the rest of her life. And after all these things, I hope she knows that I'm always here for her and that I love her so much.

Congratulations to you Bang and may you have a wonderful journey on your married life.;)

Still wishing you all the blessings in life,

Aia

Of rains and floods...

2011-10-08T07:56:00.000+08:00

So that's what it means when they say, "for better or for worse".

Glad the laptop was saved.;)

Always,

Aia

S.O.S

2011-10-05T13:08:00.001+08:00

Can someone, please, take me somewhere far away -- away from all these suffering and fear and confusion and anger and hatred and sadness.

Save me.

In pain,

Aia

Like Clark Kent

2011-09-23T23:47:00.000+08:00

"Tan-tara-tan!" he said as he unveiled the shirt he was wearing - the one that I gave to him a week before.

Even though I didn't give any reaction the way he expected me to give (because I was a bit mad at him), deep inside I smiled to myself and thought he's kind of cute and I'd just forgiven him already.

Always,

Aia

Who I Am...

2011-09-20T16:34:00.001+08:00

I've been feeling depressed lately when I come across with this song by Jessie J. It brought the sparks back to my day. It's saying that it's okay to be myself and it's not wrong to feel not okay sometimes. Her song inspired me.

Here it is:

Who You Are by Jessie J.

I stare at my reflection in the mirror

Why am I doing this to myself?

Losing my mind on a tiny error,

I nearly left the real me on the shelf.

No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!

Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay.

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.

Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,

Just be true to who you are! (who you are [x11])

Brushing my hair, do I look perfect?

I forgot what to do to fit the mold, yeah!

The more I try the less is working, yeah yeah yeah

'Cause everything aside me screams
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It's okay not to be okay.
Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
But tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
There's nothing wrong with who you are!

Yes, no's, egos, fake shows, like BOOM,

Just go and leave me alone!

Real talk, real life, good luck, goodnight,
With a smile, that's my home!
That's my home, no...
No, no, no, no, no...

Don't lose it all in the blur of the start!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,

It's okay not to be okay...

Sometimes it's hard to follow your heart.
Tears don't mean you're losing, everybody's bruising,
Just be true to who you are!

yeah yeah yeah

Just got inspired,
Aia

Who do you think you are?

2011-09-20T12:23:00.004+08:00

Suddenly, he's communicating again. He's like wanting my attention once again. After all the hell I've been through because of him, now he feels like he wants to return to me. This is all I want to say: Who do you think you are?!

Lyrics to Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri:

No I can’t take one more step towards you, cuz all that’s waiting is regret

And don’t you know I’m not your ghost anymore, you lost the love I loved the most

I’ve learned to live half alive, and now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, who do you think you are?

I hear you’re asking all around if I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms

I’ve learned to live half alive, and now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, who do you think you are?

It took so long just to feel all right, remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed, cuz you broke all your promises

And now you’re back, you’re looking to get me back

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, and tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

So don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all

And who do you think you are, running round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts, tearing love apart

You’re gonna catch a cold from the ice inside your soul

Don’t come back for me, don’t come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Always,

Aia

Of weddings...

2011-09-16T11:33:00.001+08:00

I just realize, two of my closest friends are getting married this year. That leaves me the only one who won't have any band on my ring finger by the end of the year. Unconsciously, I keep on looking at the mirror today. Am I really that undesirable? I wonder...

Always,
Aia

If I Had a Passport...

2011-09-15T12:48:00.002+08:00

If I had a passport, the first place I'd like to visit would be JAPAN! And when I go there, i would go there during spring time. I'd love to see the sakuras (cherry blossoms) lined up in full bloom.

Winter season would be nice as well. I'd soak myself in their hot spring baths as I play with the falling snow. (That would be so cool!) But then I had to make myself be able to adapt to a very, very cold --freezing-- temperature, because right now, I'd shiver at the medium speed of my junior fan. No kidding! >////< I guess I had to practice being in the freezer to be able to do this.

And then, I'd try their okinomiyaki, takoyaki, taiyaki and so much more! Oh, of course, I'd also try donning myself into one of their beautiful kimonos. I wonder how I'd look...

There's just so many things I'd like to try once I get there. But, in order to get there I'd have to undergo a very long process.

To start with, I have to get a passport first. Hai, wakarimashita!

Itsumo,

Aia desu~

Something I Miss...

2011-09-14T15:18:00.000+08:00

If there's one thing I miss that I did earlier this year, it's the Prana experience.

I'd love to go back and take a relaxing trip to their sauna, steam bath and jacuzzi bath!

Always,

Aia

Aia's an Aunty!

2011-09-14T14:41:00.003+08:00

Enough with so much negativity, let me share with you this little blessing our family had last June: Carl Lawrence Reyson - my nephew.

Yes, you heard that right, Aia is now an aunt to her brother's newborn baby. Well, since I'm also one of his godmothers, I'm his Aunty-Ninang. But when he grows up, I'd prefer him call me "Ate".

Here are some shots I had of him during his baptism last August 14, 2011:

He always clamps his fingers. When I tried openning them up, boy, was he strong! He does this pose once in a while. One finger out for a "Close-Open" trick, I guess.;)

Posing with him for the first time with my brother at the background.

Posing with him are his two beautiful Ninangs: Aia and Bang!

As soon as I had him in my arms, he fell asleep almost immediately. ;)

Don't ask me how my brother made a pass on me although I'm a year older than him, but I'm just glad this angel came into our lives and gave us one more reason to be happy.

However, my brother will still have to pay me big time for making that pass. Hmph...

The happy aunt,

Aia

People Think...

2011-09-14T13:07:00.000+08:00

People think I'm very childish, I won't deny

What's the delineation of maturity and childishness? Can someone tell?

Does it mean I must not be bothered by the false accusations they throw at me?

Does it mean I have to clothe myself the way they do?

Does it mean I have to speak, act and think like they do?

When people say I'm childish, does that make them mature?

Because I dress up, act, speak and think like I do, does that make them proper men/women?

Tell me then, what does it take to be mature?

People think I'm not a "prim and proper" woman.

I have just stepped into the early tweens of my life, do I really have to look like I'm +8 of my age?

I am a homebuddy.

I am not fond of night-outs or clubbing or parties or whatever you call it.

I do like sing-alongs with close friends.

And I do like dressing up prettily.

I have insecurities about my look so when I dress up, I make sure I look good on it.
Does it make me improper?

Oh, and can a man and a woman not be friends?

When talking and laughing and joking with the opposite sex, does it mean you're flirting with them too?

When seen riding with them in their wheels, I always thought it's called hitching a ride; I didn't know it's dating now.

Is that improper too?

So, how does one act to be a "prim and proper" woman?

People think.. oh I don't care anymore.

I know myself better than any of them.

If being mature means having the liberty to judge a person (as if they were God) according to their standards and spreading malicious information against another person, I'd rather be called childish.

In the end, they won't be the judge of me and I to them.

World peace,

Aia

Gomenasai (Part II) - Just So You'll Know

2011-09-07T13:42:00.001+08:00

Here's another poem from a not so distant past: Click on the image to read the poem.

I hope you'll enjoy it.

Always,
Aia

Proud Coward

2011-09-06T18:21:00.006+08:00

This poem was written last year. Kindly click on the image to read the poem.

I hope you'll like it. ;)

Always,
Aia

My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #10

2010-09-08T17:20:00.000+08:00

These are the 10 things which I love the most about him:

10. His silly, teasing laughter

He's always give that loud teasing laugh whenever I do or say something funny and I'd get the feeling of being ridiculed even if he didn't mean it that way. He asked me how to laugh in a way that I won't feel insulted. He tried copying my laugh every time - he sounded even sillier. ;)

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #09

2010-09-08T17:06:00.000+08:00

09. His soft yet manly manner of speaking

Several hours talking on the phone and I just can't get enough of his voice. Oh, when will he realize that?

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #08

2010-09-08T14:58:00.000+08:00

08. His "flabbergasted look" while explaining himself to the jealous me.

When the look on my face turns sour over something he'd share, he'd almost immediately change his amused smile into a "Viru 'VIRUS' Sahastrabuddhe" look; and I end up laughing instead.;D

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #07

2010-09-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

07. His deep-seated, droopy, brown eyes

Whenever I see them (so mesmerizing), I can't help but smile.;)

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #06

2010-09-08T14:28:00.000+08:00

06. His jealous demeanor over my ex

He'd always have that confident, no-care-at-all attitude at first, then he'd be mean, always looking for some argument about even the smallest things and then in the end, he'd give up, sounding so bitter about the other homo sapien. Haha.. he'd look so cute to me.;D

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #05

2010-09-08T14:08:00.000+08:00

05. His big, tough, tanned hands enterwined with my small ones

Best thing about a relationship is for someone to hold my hand and make me feel that I'm not alone. And when he does that, I feel happy. ;)

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #04

2010-09-08T13:27:00.000+08:00

04. That focused look he has as he shoots for three!

On that one game he played, he had the ball in his hands. Then he went past his blocking opponents, dribbled the ball "Milo" style, created fake moves, stood outside the 3-point line, jumped with all his strength and shot the ball into the ring -- all in one breath! Believe it or not, my heart thumped like a mad man -- I couldn't even shout his name. But I did kick his foot at the end of the game (for nearly giving me a heart attack). XP

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #03

2010-09-08T13:01:00.000+08:00

03. The shy look on his face the first time he said "bagyo..."

... and he thought I was the first one to say the words when I was just reminding him of the then upcoming storm. It's the most adorable thing I've ever seen. >///<

Always,
Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #02

2010-09-08T12:26:00.000+08:00

02. The way he caresses my hand with his soft kisses.

He's not a man of many words but when does this, it's plenty enough. ;)

Always,

Aia

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My 10 Favorite Things about Him: #01

2010-09-08T12:06:00.001+08:00

01. His Honest Expressions

When there are things that bother him and he tries to hide it, I only have to look at him and then I'll know. His awkwardness on the first date, his confident advances, his amusing smiles, his sad-looking eyes during tough times, his tipsy eyes followed by a yawn, his menacing look, his angy face, everything... if I could just wrap them all up in a box and tie my name tag on it so they could all be mine, I would; but if I did that, he might hate me for it so no, I'll let him the way he is. He's beautiful that way. ;)

There are still so many more things to discover about him. Each day is as exciting as the day before. I wonder what his favorite things about me are. Hmm...I'd leave that thought to him.

Always,
Aia

disclaimer: the picture on this article does not belong to the author

Message in a Dream

2010-08-23T11:01:00.002+08:00

There’s this dream that I want to share with you. A dream God used so His message could reach me and give what my soul was craving for – peace.

It was during the time when my heart had its first broken experience. Every day was just like the day before – dull, meaningless, empty. I couldn’t think straight. I couldn’t smile like I used to. It felt like every thing’s confusing, like I was there but I wasn’t. Every night I prayed to God for the strength to get through it all. Every night I cried to God why all had ended just like that. Though during the day I would gather my strength to keep myself together; every night, I shattered – I was so broken up inside.

Then one night, after praying to Him, I had this dream. It was in a place where we went a week before he said goodbye. We were on a rubber boat waiting for the next wave to come. When the tie was released, we raised our hands up. We clearly were enjoying the ride as the waves came at us. I was so happy with him by my side. It had been like that for a couple of rounds.

Then, at the next bend, there appeared a crossroad. I was too overwhelmed with the current thrill that I didn’t take notice of its presence. When the boat took a hard turn to the left, he was gone. I was so frantic looking all over for him. Different emotions took over me at the same time. I was so sad, so worried, so angry, so frightened that I lost him.

While I was at confusion, I didn’t notice that the boat was moving along a serene lagoon. I was too absorbed with my worries that I failed to notice the beauty surrounding me and took them as nothing but dull scenery. Despite the magnificence of the place, I continued my weeping.

Moments later, the rushing waves returned and I was holding unto my seat again; I was screaming on top of my lungs again; I was having fun again. Before I realized it I was me again. There I understood what God wanted to tell me: no matter how rough the circumstance was, no matter how hard reality would hit, no matter what – He knew it will be okay in the end. He knew I was going to be alright.

When I woke up, a single tear dropped from my eye and something inside me started flourishing. It was Him. His message evidently remained in my heart and filled the empty spaces – making it whole again. And at that instant, I found it – I found peace.

Aia's Jewels

2010-08-17T15:21:00.008+08:00

Let me introduce to you the most beautiful, most amazing, most talented person I have ever met -- my best friend: NOVA NIÑA "bang" T. JUAREZ.

She's been my best friend since way back in high school during our fourth year. She's the best gift yet God ever gave me. No one is as blessed as I am to have a friend like her. I love her so very much now and forever.

Very beautiful, isn't she? ^_^

I also had my two close friends from college -- DANICA ZAIDA "aika" BROFAR and BLEZEL "bheng" PADILLA. We used to be stuck together like glue during our first two years in college however, the both of them had their own journey but somehow we managed to connect with one another even after all those years. I really enjoyed their company.

And then, my closest male friend ever -- JOHN JOSEPH "dong" RANARA. He became my friend during our SOEP (a bridging program conducted by DOST for the newly awarded scholars). He was the silent type who always had headphones on his ears and sleeping during break time. I really enjoyed conversing with him, like my best friend, I could talk anything under the sun with him (except I can't talk with him until dawn like I do with Bang.XD

They're the jewels of my life and I love them all. I am so blessed!XD

Lesson of the day: Count not the things you have lost but the blessings you already have.

Baka Fukko

2010-08-17T13:11:00.000+08:00

Feelings blinded you that you stubbornly refuse to face the truth
All your attention was captured by that beautiful goldfish in a bowl
That you fail to recognize the vast ocean just outside that window
You thought that it was the most beautiful fish on earth
That it was happy with you while you come and play with it

You knew that goldfish was not yours but you were playing with it
That fish might complain and say it wants to be free -- do not fall for it
It will die once you let it out; it does not want to be free
It loves its bowl -- kisses it every morning, sleeps with it at night --
So much that it is willing to be trapped in it forever and always.

You are just a temporary playmate he was willing to play with
It flicks its fins to astonish you, winks its eyes to spellbound you
But it does not and will not love you back as you do for it -- So what?
Heck – that’s just a fish in a bowl! There’s an ocean out there
Go fish yourself a more beautiful, more amazing catch – stupid hook!

Edit: Hooked while Trapped

2010-08-17T09:38:00.004+08:00

I have edited this poem by Sir Peter Pan. Really, I appreciate the effort of putting up this poem so full of ambiguous-ism. Just click on the image to make it clearer to read.

Thank you so much for this poem. I enjoyed it. ^_^

I've Had Enough

2010-08-17T07:59:00.007+08:00

Even as I have confessed to the world my feelings for him, as of this moment, I am ending it.

It has become too painful to bear. Love is supposed to be a wonderful feeling; but all I could ever feel are nothing but hopelessness, emptiness and pains. This is just too sad. I feel sorry for myself. I could hear the voice of my pride telling me loud and clear to shut my doors for him and move on. I should have done this sooner for I know he does not and will not love me back even from the start. (Ugh, what am I hoping for?! ~_~)

Once, he referred me as a hook in his poem. A hook that comforts, cares and confuses him. Well, right now, I want to tell him that the hook is untangling him free; that the hook has finally realized that she is setting her targets too low to be capturing a goldfish caged in a fish bowl; and that the hook has decided to go and fish a bigger, more beautiful, more deserving catch in the wide ocean where a lot is free to love her back.

I love him but I don't want to love him anymore. Now, this is final. This goodbye is finally real. This time mō ii!

Charm's New Look

2010-08-16T12:43:00.009+08:00

Last May, I decided to cut my long, straight hair short. It was still the same layered style with bangs almost covering my eyes. I stashed the colored parts (dying your hair can really damage it if you're as lazy to have a monthly treatment as me... so take caution.) to make my hair look black again.

So now, I look like the one you're seeing in here.

What do you think?

DEAR SIR

2010-08-11T15:59:00.003+08:00

When I'm with you, I'd get so thrilled and
My heart just won't slow down
My thoughts would freeze, sensations heightened
Yet I barely make one sound.

One look from you, I'd hold my breath
Then every thing's just a blur
You'd smile at me, I'd lose my strength
My world just stopped, Dear Sir.

When we talk, I'd get excited,
By simply hearing your voice,
When you laugh, I'm fascinated
It's the sweetest kind of noise.

When I'm with you, I'd forget Dear Sir,
You already have someone you love,
Does she know she's one lucky girl?
'Coz she's got the heart I'll never have.

And in this poem, I just partake
Unrequited feelings I have for you
I don't care if my heart re-breaks
Because, Dear Sir, I'm inlove with you.

~o~ NGCP Christmas Party! ~o~

2009-12-17T09:35:00.016+08:00

We had our 1st NGCP Christmas Party last December 15, 2009 at the Casino Español, Ramos, Cebu City. The night was so awesome. I've seen people from the different departments who I've never seen before. The ladies were so gorgeous. The gentlemen were so handsome (?)... LOL... Everyone was so INTO the occasion. I could feel Christmas was REALLY in the air. And oh, by the way, let me show you some of the pictures we had on that night. (Courtesy of Ms. GrassieDGrace, Mr. James Q and Mr. Ynnad) ^_^

" THIS IS THE ROLETA... OK, RO-LE-TA! "

YOUNG, YOUNGER, YOUNGEST! (char!)

WHO'S THAT GURL?

" DROP YOUR LUCKY TICKETS! "

CARLO: " I'M THE MAN! "

A POSE WITH MR. RUSTOM SOLON OF MTD-B

" TWITWIW! "

" THE WANDER GIRLS! "

" I WANT NOBODY, NOBODY BUT YOU! "

" MGA BABAE SA ROLETA... "

" UH-HUH, UH-HUH "

Planning Session @ Panglao Bohol

2009-12-04T12:30:00.002+08:00

We had our Planning Session in Dumaluan Beach Resort, Panglao Island, Bohol.
Check out some of the pictures we got from there. (Courtesy of Ms. GrassieDGrace)

~o~ Imperial Palace Experience ~o~

2009-11-27T11:00:00.005+08:00

Ei! Have you heard of IMPERIAL PALACE? Have you been there? I was there. Thanks to NGCP, I got the chance to experience the once-in-a-lifetime (exagerated) imperial treat!

Here are some photos to share (Courtesy of Ms. Grace Gomez):

I seldom have the chance to enjoy a luxury resort/hotel. Although I didn't get to visit other (luxurious) resorts/hotels but (for me) Imperial Palace simply takes my breath away. (Char~ ^_^) I'll definitely come back!!!

Bohol Tropics

2009-08-28T13:54:00.003+08:00

-the charms of imagination-

~Randomness~

2009-08-20T20:40:00.006+08:00

I just finished reading Chapter 11 of Io Sakisaka's Strobe Edge manga. I really admire how Io-san drew the characters. I think they're so beautiful. The story's also fun to read. I feel sorry for the female protagonist at first but I like her optimism when it comes to love. Even though she knows that the man she loves has already someone he cherishes, she still continue to love him in silence while respecting his feelings and admiring his faithfulness and love for his girlfriend.

I think it's admirable because personally I can not do such a thing. I can't be friendly with someone whom I've fallen in love with when I know he's inlove with somebody else. I mean, I don't want to get myself hurt even more because of that person. If it was me, I'd be running away from him and trying to erase his existence in my memory (that's what I personally call SELF-REBOOT *teehee*). Nah, don't believe that... that's just my chicken-self talking. Actually, I think if it was me, I'd be distancing myself from him for a bit but I won't do so much as to lose his friendship. I won't hope for a miracle *that they would break-up in the end kind of miracle* either. I would be focusing on how to boost myself instead like widening my social circle and getting into sports or adventure. But, that's just me... I can't go inside the Manga and tell the protagonist "Step aside, I'm taking over." Besides, I think characters like her is essential to make the manga so beautiful and fun to read. *I especially think that the male protagonist is soooo desirable, oh I mean, so beautifully drawn...I'm so engrossed with it..* Here's some information of the story thanks to wikipedia:

Strobe Edge (ストロボ・エッジ) is an ongoing Japanese romantic shōjo manga written and illustrated by Io Sakisaka which is about a gentle high-school girl called Ninako Kinoshita. It is serialized by Bessatsu Margaretand currently consists of 6 volumes and 19 chapters. Volume 6 ranked 24th as of July 01 2009.
Plot:
Ninako has never been in love and continuosly questions what love even feels like. She then asks her childhood friend Daiki Korenaga, who has emotions towards her, about what being in love feels like. However Ninako is still unsure whether she actully has feelings towards Daiki. Then one day on the train home from school, she bumps into Ren Ichinose, the guy school idol for the female population and the figure whom Ninako and her friend's spend their breaks catching just a glipse of Ren. Afrer a short incident, a short conversation and his smile, she experiences a new feeling, the feeling she has been longing for...love.
Main Characters:
Ninako Kinoshita The main female protagonist of which the story revolves around. A very gentle easily confused adolescent fragile girl who spends her days chasing after Ren. She can be jelous easily and quick to jump the gun at times however she is good at most of her subjects with the exlcusion of mathematics which she mentions is her weakest subject a number of times.
Ren Ichinose The male school idol who is basically good at everything and plays the role of main male protaganist. He likes to keep himself isolated from most students and is admired by all of the female populous as a result. He has a close group of friends which are male however the story gives the impression most other male students are jelous of his position. He also has a strong passion for mathematics.
Daiki Korenaga Daiki is introduced as a childhood friend of Ninako's and has strong feelings towards her at the beginning of the story. He grew attachment to Ninako after his parents divorced two or three years prior to the start of the manga to which he had to make the choice of living with his mother and older sister or his father. Since choosing to live with his father his relationship with his older sister lost its flavour. It is clear that Ninako was a love interest of his since he chose the school based her choice and in Strobe Edge: Another Light it is suggested that he picked it last minute.
Ando Takumi Introduced later on becomes a major role character. Ando is Ren's middle school friend and also has a idol like status so he finds himself competing with Ren like a rival at times. Ando takes advantage of his position and is a big time player among the female students however he forms no bonds or relationships with them and believes himself not fit for a relationship. However his opinion changes after Ninako has a strong affect on him and so his conquest begins.
Mayuka Korenaga Mayuka is the eldest of the main cast and is Daiki's older sister. Her existence is also kept low profile until a certain point where it is found that she is actually the girlfriend of the unobtainable Ren Ichinose. She has a job which is in the modelling business which she pursued for what she thought was Ren's sake and she is currently studying for extrance exams to university. After chapter 7 she has her own story arc entitled Strobe Edge: Another Light which is set when her parents are separated and where she meets Ren for the first time.

Here are some scanned pages of Strobe Edge *I only handpicked those ones that made me go KILIG... hahaha* Credits to Io Sakisaka for the drawing and the story. Thank you to the group scanlating and sharing this manga for manga fans like me. *I've been trying to find a hard copy so I could buy one but unfortunately I haven't seen one yet...T_T* Oh yeah, some of the pages weren't translated yet so this may contain some spoilers... BEWARE: These are bad for your heart *charing!*.

Ah, ah... such romance... such kilig-factor! *rawr*... teehee... just kidding! Well, let's leave it at that, I'll be continuing my story right now *I'm still logged at the 1st chapter~~T_T~~*. Till next time~~

A nice weekend to everyone~

Always,

CharmAia

~Beauty to Behold~

2009-08-11T16:30:00.005+08:00

Picture1: " Almost Heaven "

Picture2: " Heaven, Earth, Sea "

Picture3: " Stand Out! "

Picture4: " Beauty Naturale "

~the charms of imagination~

Magnificence in my Eyes

2009-08-10T21:39:00.007+08:00

Hi Guys! I want to share some of the pictures I've taken in the Island of Bantayan. The sky was so BLUE, the sand was so white, the weather was perfect; who wouldn't be tempted by these beauty?

The first three was taken during noon and early afternoon while the last three was taken during sunset (making the white sands golden). Hope you like them. A comment will be appreciated. \(^_^)/

Picture1: " Shiro to Aoi "

Picture2: " Hopping in Happiness "

Picture3: " The Playground of Blue & White "

Picture4: " The Borderline "

Picture5: " Breathtaking Blue, Golden Ground "

Picture6: " Magnifico "

-the charms of imagination-

Introductions...

2009-08-10T21:27:00.007+08:00

Introducing..*drum rolls*... the Reyson sisters! Starting from the left is Charlemarisse U. Reyson a.k.a "Aritz", 14 years old, 2nd year high school student; in the middle is Charlemaigne Joy U. Reyson a.k.a "Charm", *19 years old, employed at NGCP; and Amira Monica U. Reyson a.k.a "Amira", 11 years old, grade 6.

Let the past be buried in the tomb of yesterday; let the future be in the womb of tomorrow; what's important is today for we can only pass this way once.

* have already stopped aging ~hehe~

-the charms of imagination-

Having fun with Onion Head.^_^

2009-08-09T11:02:00.015+08:00

Hello Everyone! Good morning~~ I'm having a break from writing my *ahem* novel... *ahem* I'm still at Chapter I (I'm not even half way through it...T_T) but I'm having fun writing it. It's a girl-meets-boy kind of story. My target readers are those aging 15-20 years old who still believes in the magic of love... *aw*.... I thought of posting the story in here last night, but I decided I won't post it yet until it's already done and has already been proofread and edited (by me, myself and I..*snicker* ). Well, look forward to it! It will be a great love story. *teehee*

I'm currently watching FUSHIGI YUUGI right now. I've seen this one a thousand times but I just can't get enough of it. I remember being obssessed over this anime when I was in my primary and secondary years. Really, even until college I tirelessly looked for the complete set of this anime (including the OVAs). It never cease to amuse me. *nod* *nod*

I don't like Miaka, the heroine, much. She's such a baby and so immature for her age. I mean, even common sense should have been simple to follow yet NOO she doesn't even have one... ugh... I always get a headache when she comes out(to think she has to come out in the video more often than any of the characters ~ she's the heroine of course!!!).

<--- I really like Tasuki's character... *grins*....I mean, look at him, isn't he HOT?! *drools* (forget about his Rekka Shinen stuff) He's hotter than that... and funny too! *lol* I don't know, I guess you could say I'm attracted to nasty guys like him... *ahem* *ahem* Well, personally, I think he's one of the colorful characters in FY. Thanks to Yuu-san for creating him! Yay! ^_^

So much for Fushigi Yuugi stuff, I'll continue my movie watching~

P.S: I just love this ONION HEAD emoticons...*giggle* *giggle* *giggle* They're soooooooo KAWAII!!!!!

-the charms of imagination-

Listen...There's this guy....

2009-08-08T17:56:00.008+08:00

Lemme talk about my crush.

Well, actually, it wasn't a crush at first... it suddenly turned out that way (just to chase the pains of being broken-hearted away).

He's not THAT attractive of a guy. Not my TYPE either. Like I said, it was random. He's got this mysterious aura like those of my EX... ugh... I don't want to get through this reminiscing again...

Well, like I said, because I don't know him, he doesn't know me kind of thing, I get excited everytime I see him during lunch time... My heart could go *doki* *doki* on me...

I don't want to get to know him for I know, surely, the thrill would be gone and excitement would die right there and then... I don't like that... it won't be fun anymore...(such a bad girl!!!) I scare myself sometimes....hehe

And so, I'll continue my secret giggles as my eyes scan the company canteen for that mysterious aura of his...

Random Talks on Random Thoughts

2009-08-08T17:41:00.009+08:00

Have you noticed? My blog looks a little nicer than before, noh? Well, I got nothing to do so I've been working hard on my blog.

I added some gadgets that may let my visitors interact with me faster...i think... I really hope you'll enjoy your visit... I'll be updating my blogs from time to time with interesting topics (not only about being broken hearted or lonely or anything like that... I hope...).
Well then, I wonder if it's okay to post my stories in here... hmmm...
Guess, I'll run and think about that some more....

2009-07-31T15:37:00.000+08:00

-the charms of imagination-

...and I say "Bye, bye! Basa, Bye-bye!"

2009-07-31T15:07:00.008+08:00

My Kareshi, Sayonara!
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It’s been a month since my heart was broken
I never imagined that could be the ending
Of once I believed would last forever
I was shocked; my soul was shattered.

He’s getting married, yes, that’s what he said
That without a child, life isn’t worth living
He’ll be taking responsibility for what he did
So he bid goodbye; thanked me for everything.

I was surprised by the news; it was just too sudden
Couldn’t he say that in a nicer way, even give me a warning?
That was too cruel for him to say… too hard for me to take
And then, alas, the tears came out; my heart began to break.

I lost my drive; my smiles were gone; all but hurt remained,
What have I done, I wondered, to deserve such pain?
All I wanted was to love him and give him happiness;
But those weren’t enough for him, everything was worthless.

Then I told him I’d forget him and I’ll move on with my life,
I thought I could pull through so easily, but that was just a lie;
‘Coz memories of us together came rushing through my head,
Resisting it was so difficult, I was missing him instead.

The truth is, deep inside, I never wanted to forget you
Though it hurt me that I’ve lost you, my feelings weren’t untrue
Truly, I am grateful that I’ve met someone like you
‘Coz I’ve experienced real love and deceit all because of you.

I was scared to face reality for I know it would hurt my pride,
That you were only playing me; that everything was a lie;
Which ones were real? Which ones were not? Please, do tell;
‘Coz all those times I was sincere; for you I deeply fell

I don’t want you as friends right now; I don’t want to hear
That you’ve moved on already and found someone dear;
While I’m stuck in here in sorrows; clearly I’m not doing well,
So I told you I’d be gone forever; I gave you my farewell.

It was just for a little while but let me thank you
For all the patience, care and efforts that you have shown;
Even if it was all pretend, if not for you
That happiness and this loneliness I wouldn't have known.

But I sure do want to see you again once I have recovered
Until that day, I hope you won’t forget the days we’ve spent together;
It’s time for me to fly away; it’s time to say goodbye,
Until that day, Sayonara! My Kareshi, bye-bye…

-the charms of imagination-

The Final Blow

2009-07-03T21:04:00.006+08:00

Today I've officially broken up with my 6-month long kareshi. I'm not 'okay' actually but I think I'll be just fine. It's painful to have these memories of him flashing back from time to time but I'm already accepting the fact that these fragments are already part of my yesterdays. Well, I was happy being with him and I enjoyed his company. I even thought that it could last forever. I really did. But I guess some good things never last.

I think I'll be able to face tomorrow and move on. It's just that it's kind of lonely without his company around. I was getting used to having him 24 hours on my cellphone and hearing his laughters, his giggles and his talks with that soft voice of his. I won't ever forget. I'll carry these bitter-sweet memories of my first kareshi, my first love.

-the other side of the coin-

JOVITO GA DAISUKI

2009-07-02T08:09:00.009+08:00

Who you are, I don't know
A stranger from four years ago
Need I recall how I have known you?
'Coz I'm quite sure you've forgotten too.

Took a picture of you for a friend
That happened two years back then
You didn't smile or say anything
Neither did you you find it entertaining.

"Charm!" you called 19 months later,
Asking me for a piece of yellow paper;
That really came in as a shocker,
Have I told you my name? I don't remember.

How we exchanged numbers, I forgot
But was sure we didn't text a lot;
Not as much as we do now,
I find that funny somehow.

You weren't really serious, I knew
Suddenly asking me to marry you,
"Toinks!" I thought, "don't mess with me;
like I'd be fooled by those words, silly!"

With you, it feels like standing in front a closed door,
I'm curious to know what's within;
Will you eventually let me know you more?
If I try to knock, will you let me in?

Letting myself fell into your trap; I trust
You'll treasure these feelings so true,
I don't believe in destiny and as such
I'd rather create "destiny" with you.

-the charms of imagination-

Emptiness

2009-07-02T07:40:00.000+08:00

World's frozen, heart's gone cold,
Empty smiles, nothing to hold;
Loneliness lingered through the night,
As she held herself so tight.

Love filled her life with colors,
Stole her heart, went away;
Her own pride betrayed her,
All colors' gone but gray.

No tears left to cry,
Feelings all gone dry
But pain: no one to blame,
It's all part of the game.

Looking at her footprints from the past,
If she goes back, follows the trail
Returns to the very person that she was
Will hurt be gone as well?

Sinking deep into nothingness,
Wriggling to break free;
Trying to fight the emptiness,
Oh God, help me!